My last paper will be in approximately 8 days time...and that will probably be the last paper of my uni life...coz maybe, i would still want to study some more...dunno when..but likely...Still, I would think that it marks the end of my formal education, the education which I always wanted to attain since I understood what studying is about...Very soon, I will be stepping into the world of working and I really do not know what are the challenges which lie ahead of me...what can i expect from my company, my colleagues, my job, my bosses, the pressures that I would possibly face...It is like there are many uncertainties ahead of me...What i can only do is to pray for God's guidance...I feel as if I am going back to the first day of school, when i didn't know anything and i was really afraid...

I remember that when i was little, i used to cry or be super afraid when it is the first day of school, regardless of whether i was going to see the same people (meaning that I am in the same class). I would just be afraid. Afraid to see and meet my old classmates, uncertain about the possible new things which I would learn...I think i only got rid of that feeling when I was in Uni...kinda late right? Right now, the feeling seems to be coming back to me...and i do not feel good about it...

But now, it isn't the time for me to think about this coz i shld really be worrying about the HM exam...there seems to be a lot for me to absorb and i am afraid i cannot understand it...i just cannot bring myself to study it...maybe coz it is the last exam...so there is this inertia within me...URGH...