Many experiences of disappointment with my friends have helped me to learn how to cope with it...or so i think...I always imagine the world to be a wonderful place where there are many wonderful people around...but that is not always very true...maybe people's first impression of me is often bad...coz i always look so cool and proud...well..i can't help it coz it is just me..or pple find me very blur and silly and they start to hate a person like me...sometimes i wonder to myself, isn't it good to be blur at times...

Sometimes i really dunno where to draw a line for frens...sometimes i wonder who are my true frens...my character has shaped me to be one who cares a lot abt frens...and i hope they do the same for me..sometimes i always feel that i am the one giving and i am not receiving anything and so that is why i feel down...sometimes when i do feel down, i wonder if the reason that i am down is coz my frens sense that i do not treat them as frens and so they do likewise to me...or maybe i am just a plain boring person to hang out with...something which pple termed as "sianz" coz there are so many things that i dun do...like play mahjong...i believe in having my own style..but no one seems to have the same style as me..

When and where can i find the place and frens where i truly belong?